Monday, November 23, 2009


You are diverse yet bound as one;
Complex yet paradoxically simple.

You are humble and innocent;
Tightly knit yet openly accepting.

Unknowingly innocent and meek; but,
Defiantly smart and witty.

You will conquer all, you will go places.

You are who you are and you will be whom you want to be.

You are destined for greatness as you are designed and created
By the Greatest One.

** The poem was made by Kuya Wacky (Roark Masbad) during our second year- recollection. The poem was his message for us - Information Management 'IM' STUDENTS. :) I so love it. Thanks kuya wacky!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

November 21

Happy 2nd anniversary!

I can’t imagine that this day could have been our second anniversary as a couple. It was an exceedingly strange relationship for it was only ME who knew about it. It was a one-sided admiration/ LOVE(?) right from the start. I started admiring you ever since I was in first year college. You were my first crush in college: MOONLIGHT. You were the reason that I almost forgot that I had someone special back when I was in highschool. You were like the man of my dreams, real yet a million miles away. It was as if you were everything on my checklist that made it more fascinating:

1. Good-looking
2. Not so tall yet taller than I do and not so old
3. Clean and has style (Smells good that I’d love to hug you often)
4. White or lighter complexion than I do
5. Responsible
6. Smart and creative
7. No vices. (No drinking. No smoking)
8. Disciplined
9. Has a sense of humor (I assume)
10. Wise and passionate… blah blah blah

But sometimes you look intimidating and very silent too. It doesn’t matter to me then as I remember many times during 1st year when Jeff and I were like stalkers following your way as you go downstairs. I look forward every General Assembly of Class presidents so that I’ll get the chance to see you. Being class presidents made us acquaintances back then and sometimes you’ll smile at me whenever our paths crossed. I was very happy! My heart keeps on racing when you’re around. Things eventually got a little more special (Well, FOR ME merely) when I turned second year. Another friend Lloyd and some girl friends knew that you were as if my so-called “ultimate” crush that they became bridges, helping me out to get closer to you and know you more somehow. It was crazy but indeed so FUN at the same time. I can’t help smile whenever you’re around or just the thought of you. You inspire me! You make me happy and turn like blushing! I decided that I have to be more aggressive so that you’re last year in school would be meaningful to me at least. Yep! kinda selfish motivation! LOL. You were already graduating that time and all I wanted is that you’ll know me and I get to be in touch with you. NO MORE NO LESS! And one night on November, November 21, 2007 to be exact. Lloyd, Jeff and I were on our way home and decided to pass along Roxas gate. While walking ahead towards Claveria, Jeff said “Kring, look! MOONLIGHT!!”. And yes, it was you with another man talking about something while facing the side road. Well, I was more contented already of seeing you that night but God has been so gracious. While waiting for the traffic light to change to red so that we can pass through the pedestrian, Lloyd and Jeff were facing your way observing you at the same time while I was facing the other way laughing in delight of seeing you. Then they started saying that you were already approaching us which made my heart beat sort of unusual. And just as if everything was perfect and meant to happen, immediately after Lloyd and Jeff turned their backs, I looked back very timely that our eyes met. You smiled and waved at me. Again, I PROMISE and I swear to GOD that what I say is TRUE. You smiled and waved at me (I just love to reiterate such fact). The smile and wave that truly made my heart melt. This sounds foolish, but that’s how I felt back that time. It was an overwhelming joy and as if my heart is being tickled all along. I keep on repeating the things that had happened wishing if I could just pause and play or rewind and play everything. That marked the beginning of a more driven ME of getting closer to you and the special day of the month I will always celebrate and commit to my memory.

Eventually we became chatmates because I copied your email-address on the GACP List since I was part of the EXECOM-Secretariat Committee and used the GACP matters as initial move to talk about. Then I would send a group message through chat or text but the real thing is, I ONLY SEND IT TO YOU. How sweet right? Hahaha.I always try to think about topics I could say just to start chatting with you like your teacher in psychology who scolded us because we were noisy, why you were not present during the leadership training, what can you say about this CS teacher, etc etc. TACTICS as many would term it. I did become very creative and insistent indeed! Lloyd would even include my name always on your conversations through chats and Diana would even squeeze information about your family through Tita Lourdes who was your mother’s classmate too. That made me giggle in laughter sounding so desperate just for you to notice me and very engaged to know you further. In one conversation we had in chat, I even used my English book review project which lead you to lend me your book entitled “The Spellbinder’s Gift” by Og Mandino who was your favorite author too. (BTW, it was a great inspirational book.) I felt like exploding in so much bliss of being able to get closer to you one way or another. I even saved most of our chat conversations and proudly present them to my closest friends and your two text messages December of that year were saved for about a year and some months in my phone. That’s how spellbinding you are to me. Haha. The most unforgettable of all things that had happened is when you became one of my 18 roses of which something I thought would be so impossible. My college friends manage to SURPRISE me more when after computer laboratory as I was already leading my way to center lounge, you stand from where you were seating and handed me over my 11th red rose. My SMILE just went over ears. In my heart I am crying, not only because of you but how very close friends of mine made it possible and truly special. To my friends, my infinite thanks for a birthday truly unexpected and heartwarming and to moonlight my earnest gratitude for the effort of doing it for me who in fact you don’t even know personally. It feels like HEAVEN.

Again, thank you MOONLIGHT for coming to my life. I can say beyond doubt that because of you, I had enough reasons to smile and be happy. You’re one of the reasons I look forward in going to school. You said “silent water runs deep”.That's how I can best describe you. You told me I have an admiring and amazing disposition that I tend to show my happiness. Such comments made me think that you also take glances of me from time to time for you to have said all these. Flattering in a way! You were even one of the reasons I run as CS Representative ( moonlight: GO KRING! -@ym) and why I was so motivated to make the Seniors Night very exceptional. You reminded me that “Education is only the door to opportunities. Optimism is the key to success” -a proof of your very positive paradigm. Such made me think highly of you more! You made a part of my college life really worth remembering. Feeling crazy about you was never that bad. You were a true inspiration as you leave my lips with smiles all the time. You did a big contribution why I do well in school in some ways. Thank you.

Well, I HAD TO MOVE ON. I even had some candle lighting ritual that was a sign of ME moving on WITHOUT YOU. It happened just this year also on the same spot where you smiled and waved at me. [weird, pathetic. Name it! I'll surely agree. LOL] Moreover, whenever I would see you online or just this past days when we had some few chats, some memories flash back and it makes me smile.

I just miss you …moonlight…

P.S. I owe to GOD and to my good friends these over-enthusiastic experiences and heart pounding moments with you-Moonlight. :)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

D I A N A . . .

You're tough but kindhearted
Sometimes not afraid to speak up one's mind
Red is your color
Watch and shoes are top things on your list
You have your own principles
And you hold them true
You know your God
You speak His Word
You're dominant in some ways
Loud voice is your asset
You were never the touchy type of person
You find it creepy when friends hug you or say "I love you"
But I know you like it too
In your heart, you know its true :p
When you laugh so hard
I can't help but laugh too.
Sounds kinda flirty
"MURAG" (It's like)... you know! LOL (BTW, "murag"---> you're favorite word)

You're always generous
Very accommodating like Tita Lourds. :P
With you I can be ME
I can share anything and you listen dearly.

I can only count the times I saw you cry
You seem to have no burdens, no worries, no fears
Yet you also get hurt I know
I'm here, I hope you know

I even remember it came a point we sounded fighting
But good enough, we're mature enough to understand, Just laugh it out while eating. LOL

Hey! I want you to know:

You're really a GREAT FRIEND I treasure
You're REAL. Just always be.
You're a RESPONSIBLE LEADER and FOLLOWER that one can depend on
You're BEAUTIFUL. I am beautiful too. LOL

These are only few things I claim true about YOU.

I hope you know how much you mean to me.

I'm proud you're my kaibigan (friend), SAD groupmate, fellow mature4, IM classmate and aiko (haha) kapartido (party-mate)! :p

Wishing you a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY(Nov.17).
WELL!!! Better late than never as we always say.
God bless you more and always.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Status comment

I really don’t know if that message goes for me. (I don't want to be assuming in the first place) You once said that the songs we pick are sometimes reflection of what we really feel and just in case, you ask me the same question or if it was really intended for me to answer. Then better you should know:

I will not ask you to stay. I will not ask you to give up.

All I can do is to give you the chance to win my heart of which in many ways I know you’ve passed.

I like you. In my heart, its how I feel.

Once in while, inconsistent, confusing but definitely an out of this world, out of the ordinary feeling. *laughs*

A lot of people would even think we we’re already together as lovers. We’re not …but I will claim we’re close.

You’re my friend and you’ll always be dear to me. And it feels good to know we are friends even before things went differently special.

You make me happy (smile, laugh, giggle)! Almost most of the time.

But I’m still scared at times and please don’t get me wrong. I still have my fears and conflicting ideals but I’m gradually fighting it. I’m improving. I am positive that I do.

But the thing here is I’m not ready for the commitment, I know I cannot fully attest yet for this time being.

God knows how much happiness you’ve brought me and how much learning you’ve shared to me. I can’t thank you enough.

Well…TIME… I still need time. To think, to reflect, to measure to what extent I can give , to see if I am more than willing to concede my
NBSB -NO Boyfriend since birth status, to get myself ready and eventually grow in a relationship.

How long? I’m not really certain.

All I can promise is that I will be real to you. :)

And I’ll make you laugh too! LOL :P
*cross my heart*

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Gracias Zamboanga! Gracias Buklod Atenista!

Bienvenidos! Ciudad de Zamboanga. (Welcome to Zamboanga City!)

Buenas noches contigo! Que tal? Esta bien!
(Good evening to you! How are you? Stay good.)

I learned these few simple Chavacano (a native dialect) words while I was in Zamboanga City. The place was formerly known as the City of flowers but recently claimed to be the Asia’s Latin City. The existence of the dialect itself, which is derived from the Spanish Language speaks for its reason. *I really love the language. I’m amazed the very time I heard someone speaking the said language. Without a doubt, it is unique.*

I was one of the delegates from SAMAHAN student council (acting Outgoing Ambassador) of Ateneo de Davao University in the recently concluded 26th Buklod Atenista last October 27-30, 2009. I remembered Rob Roque, one of Ateneo de Manila’s delegates to the summit said that the feeling that can best encapsulate what has transpired in our four days of stay and experiences in Zamboanga is “GRATITUDE”.

I strongly agree! Indeed, it’s a feeling of an overwhelming gratefulness.

GRACIAS (Thank you) for having the opportunity to see and explore the vastness of culture and history of the City. I really had a great time during the tour and was astonished to see how certain historical places like the Fort Pillar were preserved throughout the years. There were a lot of bonita (chavacano for beautiful) and bracing places to visit such as Paseo del Mar, Plaza Pershing, Yakan Village, Sta. Cruz Island and many more. Special thanks to Señora Christina Cañones and Señor Zen Johan for the inputs during the said tour and to Mayor Lobregat who was very nice and warm to all of us.

Fort Pillar

GRACIAS Ateneo de Zamboanga-El Consejo Atenista (ADZU student council) for your warm welcome. You did a great job in hosting this year’s Buklod Atenista. To the executive committee, you deserved a tap on your backs. Be rest assured that all your efforts were appreciated and a million thanks for accommodating us very well.

El Consejo Atenista (ADZU Working Committee)

GRACIAS to the new learning experiences I have gained in this year’s BUKLOD Atenista. The review of Jesuit Leadership done by Father Antonio Moreno, ADZU President reminded me of what kind of leaders we need today. Leaders who are flexible, creative, learned, dialogical, heroic and engaged in the world. We need leaders who also practice magis and cura personalis. Undeniably, problems in our society are brought about by weak, if not absence of leadership or moral governance. Again, I was challenged to check my capabilities as a leader and grow better in this time of leadership crisis. On the other hand, the Discussion on Local Issues presented before us by the Social Awareness and Community Service Involvement Office representative of ADZU was an eye-opener to the other viewpoint of the pressing situations in the city. It was like a bang on my head saying “Hey! Look at the kind of world other people are living with”, which is depressing in nature and alarming at the same time. Again, the call for action and change is thrown on me. What can I do? What should I do now?

Hearing as well the different programs and activities being done by the different Ateneo schools inspires me in improving the system we have in Davao and apply some of it in school. Once more, a challenge was imposed upon me on what upgrading can be done in the school. Aside from that, the chance to do an outreach program to some natives in the nearby island and a political education in one barangay of the city were also memories to be treasured. These experiences are truly enriching and fulfilling at the same time. Again thanks to the speakers and to all the people of Zamboanga!

GRACIAS for the FRIENDSHIP. I had so much FUN working with great people from the different Ateneo schools in the Philippines(Cagayan, Manila, Naga and Zamboanga) . I pray that all our efforts will soon create a big impact in our society as we lead a big leap in creating change and progress. Thank you for sharing your knowledge and stories. It was nice meeting you all. (Edz, Becky, Aileen, Kurt, Pepi, Gio Tingson, Gio Alejo, Ton, Phil, Mar, JP, Tyrone, Gov. Kenny, Jay, Arnold, Justine, Al, Gerard, EJ, Neil, Christine, Carlo, Chris, Kevin, Kael, Noel, Romcy, Dean, Rob and the rest).


GRACIAS Señora Elaine, Señora Eloize and Señora Jubail (fellow delegates) for the bonding moments together. GIRL POWER! I enjoyed your company a lot and I look forward on knowing you all better and doing more projects/activities with you. I will not forget our favorite chavacano words such as “Si, calla boca, maskin cosa, gracias”.. LOL


Muchas Gracias!Ciudao!
(Thank you very much! Take care!)

**In a nutshell, Buklod Atenista is an umbrella organization of all student councils from the five Ateneos in the country. It was established on year 1982. The main purpose was to provide an avenue for sharing ideas about student concerns, address pertinent problems of the member councils and have a common plan/vision among Ateneo Universities. (Taken on the overview page of the 26th Buklod Atenista compilation notebook)Well, it was my first time to be part of BUKLOD and to be in ZAMBOANGA! :)